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My Poems
Robert Walters Sr.

Where Am I Now

Why do people ask me why did I change
They don't understand I'm not the same
An emotional roller coaster is where I'm at
Life has dealt me a loss I don't know how to react
In an instant you life changes like the fresh air
Now you are left with nothing but grief and despair
Your heart, your mind your entire being transforms
Like the lighting that comes from a thunderstorm
In the flash of an instant a life that once mattered
Your heart once happy now torn and shattered
Memories are all we have left in our mind
We look for signs anything we try to find
Trying to console a weary heart and troubled soul
Has left it's mark and is taking it's toll
Who I am now is not what I wanted to be
There is no way I could ever foresee
In my heart and mind I can never let go
My only hope is that you will never know
What it is like to lose a loved one this way
When they committed suicide on that tragic day
I know first hand the agony and defeat
For it sweeps you right off your feet
This is why I am not the same
I just have to deal with all the pain
Do not fraternize or say you understand
Until you have been where I now stand
So now you know just how I feel
This is life and this is real

Author: Robert Walters Sr.